I have more of it now than I did a while back. What a relief. It took effort to get there though. Who would have thought? Not only did it take rest, it took effort to get energy. I had to use some to get some. I lost quite a bit having cancer and being treated for cancer. I became terribly used to operating at a very slow pace. But post-treatment found me bumping into walls as I tried to ramp up (see this post).
At first I thought it was still part of the recovery process. But now I think it may be something different. I think I'm in training, sort of. I'm in training to work longer and maybe a little faster. I'm building my endurance. It's a very physical thing. Like runners who train to run farther or faster or both. It's hard and then it gets easier with repetition. I SO cannot relate to this as I'm not physically oriented at all.
The part that throws me is that it shows up emotionally. I get very down and depressed and don't behave well.
Will I ever get it?
Your "Crashing" post and this one sound like me a few years after my hysterectomy. I would have meltdowns when I couldn't think straight, be very irritable and cry over nothing. I found that I needed Estrogen in my sytem. It leveled me out so that I didn't have those swings. Once in awhile it happens when I don't remember to change my patch in time, but for the most part, it is smooth sailing.
Posted by: Leslie Firestone | January 31, 2009 at 11:52 AM